Chestnut + Hazel: Letters from Washburn Road # 7

Something interesting came in the mail today; it was marketing mail for business checking accounts from Citibank and US Bank, and they were addressed to Chestnut & Hazel. I wouldn't mind setting up business checking accounts for Chestnut + Hazel, but I really don't have any steady income from Chestnut + Hazel yet.

I made an effort set up an account to self publish a book. It would be the Chestnut Street series. I have to take a look at it and see what changes I would make to the text.

It's midnight. I'm hungry, and I don't know where to go to eat.

I went to the Cannery Casino to eat at the Victory Cafe, but it wasn't open. Google Maps said it was open 24 Hrs, but I guess that wasn't accurate, so I ended up at Bourbon Street Bar and Grill. I had wings, but I wasn't too excited about them, they just seemed excessively battered, but I was really hungry and I'm really not sure what other options I had.

Sometimes when I go out to eat I get the feeling that the food was microwaved after being pulled out of a bag from something I could have purchased from the frozen food section of the grocery store.

I went and got an oil change, which was something I've been meaning to do for a while, and when I was getting the oil change, the technician recommended that I get my transmission fluid changed, so I did that as well. I really don't want to spend more than I need to right now, but I know that I've put a hell of a lot of miles on my car over the last few months, so I need to weigh being cautious with my spending against the risks of unexpected car problems from skipping on maintenance now.

...

I have to think. I was thinking about pursuing a graduate certificate in Spanish Translation at UNLV. One issue is that out-of-state tuition would make this cost prohibitive, but it's possible that my time in Nevada during 2018 would count toward my status as a Nevada resident, this is something I have to look into, and I'd probably have to request records from the Nevada DMV.

That UTA thing was a total disaster. I'm trying to squeeze as much out of the experience as I can by going through the course material, but. Yeah, that was a real interesting way to flush $3,500 down the toilet.

I need to explore as many programs at as many universities as I can. I really would prefer an in-person program rather than something remote, or online. I'm still kind of hesitant to look at anything. I'm hesitant to pursue a different graduate program unless I know that it will be the right fit for me. I don't know if there is any possibility of heading back to Texas for one semester, and just taking two classes or whatever, but, who knows.

...

I really want to buy new pants, and a new belt, but I also really want to hold off on doing either, and yet, even though I really want to keep my spending as low as possible, I went out to eat earlier today and I went out for drinks the other day. I went out for drinks the other night, and it was supposed to be a kind of date, but, we didn't end up meeting up. I went to the place she wanted to meet up at, but she wasn't there. I waited for about an hour, and then went home, and like five minutes after I was on my way home, she said she was there, and that I should turn around and come back.

That was discouraging, so I'm going to take a break from online dating. This is the second time I deleted, second or maybe third time I've deleted a dating profile in the last month. I switched accounts for some of my autopay expenses, and I'm kind of just waiting until the switch over becomes active.

...

Queen of the Goths

she's cute,

and.

she's kind of talking to herself,

and.

it seems like a very

engaging conversation,

but

maybe she's singing,

and

she doesn't have a headset on,

she's either singing

from memory

talking to herself.

...

I settled the account with UTA. That was a fucking pain in the ass. I don't know how many times I've gone over this situation on my blog, but I'll go over it again. I was originally awarded 10500 in student loans, but after withdrawing from the MSQF program, that amount was reduced to about 8500, these are all rough numbers but they're close enough, anyway, I was asked to return 2000 dollars to the University, UTA, and I just remitted the payment of 2000 bucks a few minutes ago. Headache. I really wasn't prepared for this. Anyway. I was really going to put this whole ordeal off for a while, but when I looked into my student loan account, or the account that services my student loans, I noticed that they adjusted the student loan amount from 10500 to 8500, so I figured since the issue that I was worried about most has been fixed, then I guess I'm comfortable settling the balance with UTA. The issue that I was afraid of was paying twice, so to speak, but if the loan servicer adjusted the amount due, then there is no need to worry about paying twice, and that's why I figured I'd settle the tab at UTA.

...

The other day I was thinking that it's really nice to be tired because it's really nice to fall asleep as a result of being tired, rather than falling asleep because I have nothing better to do.

I want to go into the details about the issues I'm facing in terms of UTA and the DOE student loans and all the nonsense I have to deal with. I'm just finding it difficult to explain. I'm pissed about the way things turned out this first semester, but I'm not totally burned to the point of being completely deterred from going to graduate school.

There are certain things that I need right now, but that I can hold off on. I need an oil change, and tires. she's cute, and. she's kind of talking to herself. and it seems like a very engaging conversation. maybe she's singing.

I'm kind of tired. There was an opportunity to sign up for overtime after the end of my shift this morning, so I signed up. In a way I kind of want to take it easy, but really, the best thing to do is take any overtime that I can get and get my finances back in order. I'm sure there will be time to relax later. I think about how I kind of didn't really do anything for the last several months, and I think that if I could have done things differently, I would have done nothing in a way that would be more enjoyable.

...

I was so tired toward the end of my shift last night. I haven't worked in five months or so, and I guess my body just needs to get back into the rhythm of working again. At the end of my shift I went to the gas station to get food, and I was just shocked with how expensive it was. I had three hot dogs and a soda refill, and I guess I won't be going to that gas station again, for breakfast anyway. I still might need gas, and who knows when or where I'll need gas. I'm sure that my life is going to get on track again, but this is going to be a long journey back to, you know, where ever the hell I was financially. I think about those times after a natural disaster when people rebuild their towns and homes and cities, and I think about my life and how I'm rebuilding my life after this disaster that happened over the last few months of my life. Disaster. Rebuild. Grow. Live. Disaster. Rebuild. Grow. Live.

I'm thinking about something, and this something is stressing me out right now.

I'm at work, and my mobile service provided doesn't really have much of a connection in this part of town.

...

This is where

you are and

where you will

always be because

this is where the

rainbow ends

and this is where

the pot of gold is

and this is where

leprechauns hang

out and here you

can tell me what

you are looking for in terms of

gold and silver and there was nothing

there for anyone to do and there was

nothing interesting that may have been

there and you can see what the end of

the taste is and you can sense what

you continue to feel. why do you feel

that way? ask yourself and you will

come up with an answer, but it might

or it might not be the right answer.

...

I really want to buy

some new clothes

right now, but I just

don't need any.

and I don't know if this is the

kind of thing that I should do

anyway to elevate my mood.

I think that there are times when

I skimp on simple pleasures, only

to really obliterate my money on

other things that I really do not

enjoy or appreciate or even really

want to spend any of my money on.

...

Outside it sounds like

it's raining, but when I

go outside it turns out

that it's not raining. It's

just the wind blowing

through the leave of

the trees, and the sound

that this process makes

resembles the sound of

rain. That's what it was.

It wasn't butter melting

on a stove nor was it rain.

it was just the wind

blowing through the

leaves of the trees.

...

I wanted to tell you something, but I never had the chance to do so because I was driven off by some, well, I was driven off by the lady at the bar who told me that she was going to have to ask me to leave. She told me that she was going to have to ask me to leave, and I'm not sure why, I think that the issue was that my nails were dirty, and I think that the issue was that the brunette was there, yeah, that one, but who knows, who knows? Nobody knows because no one knows who the brunette is? she is someone that nobody knows because her identity was reduced to something other than what it used to be the other day. She has a new name. It was funny seeing that Gordo's Barbecue was shut down. I liked that place.

...

Why do I keep looking at

the very reason that I

ever got started

Why.

why do I keep looking?

an idea? a reason?

a thought?

what?

how do I express what.

how do I put this into

words?