Chestnut + Hazel: Letters from Washburn Road # 1

what could I be doing right now? i can't really think of anything, and I don't really want to rush into anything. I have time, and I should be using it for something, but what?

I have most of everything that I need to complete my change of residence from Texas to Nevada, and to request a Nevada Driver's License and to register my vehicle in Nevada. The main thing that helped me was an account that I set up with Bank of America on a whim, just a savings account. Like I said, I set it up on a whim, and I'm not sure why I set it up, but the statement cycle just finished, most of my other accounts have statement cycles that would end later in the month, and so, if I were to have waited for any of the other accounts to issue a new statement with my updated address, it would probably be another week. The issue that I'm having, right now, however, is that the Nevada DMV website is not working. It's down or something. It's not loading.

What was the first issue that I was facing when it came to graduate school? Group work, and group projects. I just really hate doing them, and they're rarely ever a collaborative effort. Most of the time there's this dynamic of establishing a pecking order. I don't want to make a contribution if I'm just going to be discredited for any work that I do. In this case, the person that I was originally assigned to work with. She was positioning herself in a way where, I would basically work on something, and I would have to run it by her first, and she would either say yes or no on it, and I thought that was shitty, like, fuck that, why doesn't she just do all the work, and I have the final say on it.

I should probably just forget about graduate school altogether. I don't want to be in a position where, the only thing I do is spend all of my time working for someone else, or doing someone else's work, pay tuition and shit for doing so, and in the process get discredited for any work that I do.

One of the issues from the outset was figuring out how to divide the work, even then the other person didn't really want to divide in conquer, but rather, I would do everything, and she would just have the final say on everything.

If I were in a position where I were getting paid for whatever work I was doing, I wouldn't really give a shit, she could send everything back and I'd do it all over again, but I'm not okay with an arrangement like this in a situation where I'm basically paying to learn, and I'm getting bogged down by doing all the work, and then, doing all the work all over again just so some other person can claim to have had the leadership role in the project. Like fuck that. I just pray to fucking God that these student loans are forgiven, and I could just do something else.

I was using an external hard drive for the longest time. My previous laptop didn't have very much hard drive space, or memory, and so I used an external drive to get around that, but my current laptop has a large enough hard disk that I really don't need an external hard drive, so I moved all the files from my external hard drive to the hard drive on my laptop and reformatted my external hard drive. I really didn't have any important information on my external hard drive, just gaming files and stuff. Most of the games that I play are really old. I haven't really bothered to look at anything new.

I wrote an email to my graduate advisor about dropping both of my classes and withdrawing from the MSQF program. There was a social dynamic that I really had trouble navigating, and, just found it an overall difficult environment to get very much of anything done in. I just don't really see any chance of going back there, and even if I did, I'm sure I would have many of the same issues next semester as I did this semester, and so I think it's really best that I just withdraw in this case.

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I feel kind of lost, and kind of stuck at the same time. I'm getting things together to file for a Driver's License and Vehicle Registration in Nevada, and I really think it's less and less likely that I'll return to Arlington, Texas, and to UTA for the MSQF program. I don't really know where to go from here.

I think that. Well. There is a recession looming on the Horizon. What's going to happen? How is life going to be more or less difficult in the future? How will life be harder? How will life be easier? Things are going to be amazing! Trust me! Things will go well, and things will be amazing for you! Trust that things will be Amazing! and they WILL BE AMAZING! YOU KNOW HOW LIFE CAN BE AMAZING!

Sometimes I look up people from different periods of my life just to see how they are doing these days.

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This annotation to "innocuous post 37" is being written on 10/12/2022 04:17 PM

I remember writing this post. For a while after I moved to Texas, I started to pay more attention to the Mega Millions and the Powerball. I think that the main reason for this was that when I was living in Cameron, Missouri, I just didn't come across many advertisements for the lottery, or many billboards advertising the current Mega Millions or the Powerball jackpots. In a big Metro area like Dallas / Fort Worth, it was different, there were Lottery billboards everywhere, and everywhere I went there were people scratching lottery tickets, and, even that short month in January of 2022 when I worked at the gas station, there were tons of people who spent tons of money day after day buying lottery tickets and spending their lottery winnings on even more lottery tickets.

Every now and then I'll take an old post, and reflect on what was happening at that time, and then eventually I'll turn the old post into an "Archived Content" post. I looked at a few, and most of the old posts were about some of my initial thoughts about relocating to Texas. I don't think that I've written very much about my relocation from Texas. Not yet anyway. Lots of things just sort of went down the toilet after the end of February, February being the month that I went on a road trip to Louisiana and really fucked up my car in the process. Work wise, I think I remember quitting my second job at the Gas Station, the manager at the gas station was making the work situation more unpleasant than it needed to be, which made me think that she just really didn't want me working there and was creating a situation that would cause me to quit. Same thing at the Janitorial place that I worked 2 days at late in February.

Sometimes when I start a new position, I'm never sure if I should take things slow and not make any waves or rustle any feathers, or catch any one's attention, or, you know, sometimes I think that if I do take things slow, I'll be perceived as not being really interested in the role, or not being enthusiastic about my role.

I'm starting over again in Nevada. I really don't know what kind of long-term plans I have. I don't really have any long-term plans at this point. My thinking is that, for the next 12 months or so, I'll just reduce my debt and save up money for whatever does happen next. I just can't believe that I let things get out of hand like this. I wonder what I could have done differently. One thing would have been to relocate after the first road trip. The one back in June or July or whatever, but I don't really know, I had too many different things going on. Part of the reason I came back to Texas was to go to college, but that fell apart really quickly. I'm wondering how the fuck that happened, but everything was falling apart there, everything was falling apart for me in Texas, and really, to me, that means get the fuck out of there. I held on after the catastrophes I experienced in February, I did what I could and held on, and even school was an attempt to keep things going for me in Texas, but the school thing fell apart. So really, everything was falling apart for me in Texas. I "ran away" from Texas, but, I gave it a good 8 months and a good 50,000 dollars worth of effort to stay there after things were clearly going to hell in February. Maybe I did "run away" from my problems in Texas, but it probably would have made more sense to "cut my losses" early, and leave Texas, or started making plans to leave Texas, after February.

The only thing that I can think of doing here, while I'm in Las Vegas, is to reduce my debt, and increase my savings for as long as I can, and just have money and credit lined up for whatever happens. Every now and then things just seem to spiral right down the toilet. In San Jose, in Nevada four years ago, in Missouri two years ago, and just recently in Texas. Here we go again.

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innocuous post # 37

somewhere in the ancient fortress town called
fort worth there is a winning lottery

ticket waiting to be purchased from bald

man number eight fourteen, he's soldering

a medieval random number picker

known as The Dart Board of Elysium

which went downward through history, sticker

covered and glued with glitter and gypsum

to cover a crack in it's backside, and here

today, upon the bald man's desk, it sits,

waiting to reunite the forest's deer

with the savannah's antelope, which pits.

fuck this. the poem is fucking stupid.

i would much rather go right back to bed.

like where the fuck was I going to go

with that deer and antelope shit? who knows?

I was just thinking like. i have three lines

left and i don't know where to take this damn

metaphor, dumb ass deer, dumb ass lions

stupid fucking dart board glued with green ham

and orange eggs. fuck. i had tacos once

more today. glorious and crispy ones.

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Butter is not the Answer # 19

you're wondering what

that feeling is. it's sweat!

you've been working out

and now you are greasy.

or you've been humping

your lover like the two of

you haven't humped each

other in years. you asked

yourself what that greasy

feeling might be. and

the answer to that question.

is not butter. butter was not.

and is not the answer to your

question.

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okay. so what i want to know is. how does an emphasis. so. how does the individualized projects / team projects dichotomy reconcile itself with the work from home (WFH) / return to the office (RTO) dichotomy? and. i'm not trying to suggest.

anyway. i think that i've come with a solution to. like. how to respond. to any kind of. anyway. i'm not really going to worry about this for now because. i'm really not in that line of work anyway. and i have no intention of pursuing that line of work.

when i think about this. i just really don't want to suggest anything. i don't want to bring up anything that could. like. challenge the work from home (WFH) movement. i don't really want to say anything that would suggest that i'm anti-work-from-home, or anything. because.

and then, let's suppose hybrid-work environments. how do you hybridize individualized projects and team projects? what is the industry jargon for hybridized individualized collaboration work?

okay. i'll just take a position. if the team is the be all and end all of a project, then (RTO) would be optimal, wouldn't it? because you would have that additional layer of in-person collaboration that you just wouldn't get from tele-conferencing.

okay. so here. i have an idea for the. well. here's the thing. there are arguments for both sides of the return to the office (RTO) / work from home (WFH) argument.

one issue. one idea is that the (WFH) movement is a conspiracy on the part of the collaboration software industrial complex, how do we know this: cui bono! and, you could also say that, anyone who returns to the office (RTO) is, by definition, a team player, even if the person is a total introvert.

honestly, what side am i on? honestly: cui bono! i benefit most from (WFH) because i really don't like traffic. like really. why is there so much traffic. it's a car maker conspiracy! yeah. that's full disclosure.

and. yeah. that was really more thinking than i wanted to do after reading a short tweet and a few supporting tweets.

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I have a little over an hour before I should be checking out of this motel, I really don't have any money right now for another day. On the one hand there's this idea that the easiest thing to do would be to head back to Texas, I wouldn't have to go through this whole relocation headache yet again. I dropped all of my classes at UTA, and this is bad, of course, but it might be forgivable. On the other hand, I have a feeling that there's some reason for all of this traveling and shit that I've been doing lately, I really should be leaving Texas, but where the hell do I go? This area is just fine for finding work and setting up my business, and it's a kind of low cost of living area, I think. The issue with staying here is that when I think about relocating, I start thinking that I can really relocate to pretty much anywhere. Or to put it another way, when I think about relocating, I could probably find something that's slightly more ideal than this particular place.

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So what are my plans now? I wouldn't mind hanging out here in Somerville, but, I eventually have to go back to school. I have to be in a city where I can find work, transfer into a new college, somewhere that's somewhat inexpensive, and that I can set up my business. I'm somewhat skeptical that I'll be able to transfer to a new college, given that I basically didn't accomplish anything during my first semester at UTA. This was a fucking disaster.

I found it hard to get anything done. The reason I wanted to use the Bloomberg Terminal as the primary resource for the course was because the Bloomberg Market Concepts Certification course was part of the Student Managed Investment Fund's requirements. I found the Bloomberg Terminal kind of complex to use, at first, but once I got the hang of it, I found it extremely useful.

Most of the analytical crap you would do in Excel, or in some other is stuff you can do in the Bloomberg Terminal by pressing the correct button, or, if you have some other formula or algorithm that you're working with, you can just plug it into the Bloomberg Terminal. There seemed to be this obsession with exporting data from the Bloomberg Terminal to work with it in Excel or some other software program to do some kind of analytical shit, but, it just seemed like an unnecessary extra step.

Anyway, I dropped my classes, and I'll see about getting into a college, or transferring into a college somewhere in Tennessee. It's 3:56 AM and I'm really fucking hungry, luckily for me, nothing is fucking open. I'm thinking that, okay. so. I can't really head back to Texas for whatever various reasons that prevent me from heading back there. I can't go back, and that's that.

I'm trying to think about what the hell went wrong there. Well, I guess I owe a bunch of money and didn't even so much as finish my classes.

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I don't completely remember what set me off on that First road trip in June, or the one in February, or any of these road trips. Maybe I was thinking about relocating. I don't remember. I think that I'm going to relocate this time, but what the hell am I going to do for work? How the hell do I get set up in a new town? I need to find work, and an apartment. I minute ago I was thinking about heading back to Texas, but I really can't head back to Texas.

I'm thinking.

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Notes Taken During My First Semester at the University of Texas at Arlington

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Annotation to Notes from Arlington # 65

This was written during my June Road trip. It's September 25th, 2022, and I'm back in Tennessee.

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i stayed in Somerville tn for a night. im in the next town over, and i already feel like just staying here.

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today is sunday. my thinking is that the roads should be empty, and it would be a good idea to keep driving.

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i cant really go back to texas anyway. but i dont really know where to go.

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maybe it was just time to leave texas. i had been there for 2 years. maybe it was just time for me to go. i really don't know what to do about college though.

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i think that im just going to relocate.

i'm on the Arkansas side of Memphis.

i honestly don't know where the hell to go.

Everywhere is a fucking nightmare.

the nightmare never ends.

I really can't go back to Texas.

I have to leave texas. I really do.

I don't really know where to go, though.

this was a fabulous waste of money.

I threw away as much of my stuff as I could.

and threw away additional stuff on my way here.

I'll probably throw away

additional stuff here

and there

on my way to where

ever the hell I end up.

i don't really know where

the fuck to go at

this point.

I'm facing one frustration after another.

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I'm really having a hard time getting my business in a more formalized state. I have the various things that I need to do on my calendar, but, sometimes there is no telling if I will get anything done or not, or if I'll get distracted by this or that issue, or, you know, who knows what will happen. I'm still facing a number of different challenges. and stuff. You know, like this and that stuff.

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Class Notes Starting September 14th, 2022

one thing that I often face that impedes my ability to get anything done is the avalanche of emails that I have to deal with, or that fall into my mail box. I obviously don't read them all, but I usually scan them to see if they contain anything important.

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Thinking. I'm going to hold off on looking for work right now. or looking for an internship or anything like that.

I really should just be focusing on school right now.

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Butter is not the Answer # 9

I stayed in Gallup, New Mexico for just one night, I hung out with one of the locals, and I really think that I liked her. I really would have considered staying in Gallup, New Mexico, still. I'm not sure what I would have done for work, or where I would have stayed or, whatever. There was something interesting at the hotel I stayed at. The hotel was actually somewhat fancy, and some of the other hotels in the area, the ones that seemed abandoned, or worn down, or otherwise kind of lousy, were the ones I really wanted to stay at. I wanted to stay at a cheaper motel, or cheaper hotel or something that was cheap, and also looked cheap. The desk agent was actually a person who was telecommuting.

I'm in Gallup, New Mexico. This seems like a tourist destination, but, it also seems like a college town too.

Annotation written on 10/09/2022 @ 05:29 PM

I really thought about staying here.

I really thought about staying in
Gallup, New Mexico. They have

a University there, and I really

thought about relocating to that

area.

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I stated in Gallup, New Mexico for just one night, I hung out with one of the locals, and I really think that I liked her. I really would have considered staying in Gallup, New Mexico, still. I'm not sure what I would have done for work, or where I would have stayed or, whatever. There was something interesting at the hotel I stayed at. The hotel was actually somewhat fancy, and some of the other hotels in the area, the ones that seemed abandoned, or worn down, or otherwise kind of lousy, were the ones I really wanted to stay at. I wanted to stay at a cheaper motel, or cheaper hotel or something that was cheap, and also looked cheap. The desk agent was actually a person who was telecommuting.

I'm in Gallup, New Mexico. This seems like a tourist destination, but, it also seems like a college town too.

Annotation written on 10/09/2022 @ 05:29 PM

I really thought about staying here.

I really thought about staying in
Gallup, New Mexico. They have

a University there, and I really

thought about relocating to that

area.

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Postcards from Tennessee # 9

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what else is on my mind? Just facing quite a few challenges lately. It seems as though everywhere I go, someone or another tries to instigate a reaction. and it isn't always clear to me why.

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June

July

and

August

were kind of a blur

same for the first part of September. I think that I went on four road trips this year. really long fucking road trips.

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Notes from Arlington, Texas # 68

I better not buy anything that I don't need. I thought about buying a few wallets online, but I'm going to hold off on that for now.

Annotation to Notes from Arlington, Texas # 68

I really spent way too much money during these last few months. I really need to make my best effort to stay in school, otherwise I'm more or less fucked.

and again.

I really don't know how I'll be able to balance working and going to college at the same time. This might be a pain in the neck, but I also might be able to make this happen. Who knows.

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Note: This is kind of a running page of notes.

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I really don't want to wear hats anymore. I feel like they give me a headache. One thing I realize from being in Texas for several years now, is that, it's hot, and humid, and it's really easy to get sweaty and smelly.

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I would like to think up a new series title, but I really can't come up with anything. I really can't think of anything.

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This is where the orange juice

sends the lemonade to the martini.

this is where the mimosa and the

mojito drink and eat and feel

the ends of the earth.

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okay, so here is the issue. currently. i might be able to get some work done, but i'm not entirely sure about that. it's fifty-fifty.

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Note: This is kind of a running page of notes.

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it can be kind of difficult to get anything done around here. a total fucking nightmare. I doubt that any of us can really get anything done.

it's kind of such a nightmare. to get anything done/ it can

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im not an indolent moron, nor am i an insolent ingrate. im tired. thats it. i guess it's a smoking room.

i ended up smoking in the room anyway. dont worry. i didnt have any fucking food. so i ate the nearest thing available.

anyway. i know it took me a while to return to dallas, but, i figured that time was not of the essence, since compound interest is the most powerful force in the universe.

however. i have to figure something out. i cant find my fucking calculator. i havent upgraded since 1989. i dont even know if i still have that thing. shit.

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always. if i visit Kentucky. i invariably manage to take the route back to dallas that passes through nashville. or vice versa, like last month.

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This is the Third Time, September 3rd, 2022

anyway.

kenneth larot yamat is currently subject to a nondisclosure agreement with an undisclosed party.

should any specific remarks be made about his complete inability to perform cunnilingus from monday 7:02 AM to monday 7:77 AM be discussed with anyone other than the appropriate parties invloved, he will be in violation of said non-disclosure agreement, the breach of which will require significant compensation in the form of additional specific performance of additional cunnilingus or additional performance based compensation in the form of substantially more intense cunnilingus for the remainder of the current artistic performance of completely unsatisfactory cunnilingus, requiring an additional cunnilingus session performed with all deliberate haste.

should he smell like anything other than pussy juice upon his return to his current residence, he will be subject to nothing less than multiple additional performances of additional cunnilingus.

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some young man made a defamatory remark a while ago. young. but thats the way it goes for kids his age. well. he left. so.

well. any chance he could. you know. he is.

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i dont know whats up. but. i think someone out there is accomplishment blocking me. i tried to head back to texas so that i could attend class in person, however, as soon as i left indiana, there was a fucking monsoon, or fucking invasion from outer space consisting primarily of rain drops, which kept falling on my head. so i put on my hat.

i dont feel like drowning to death. right now. i asked the sheriff for directions, he said theres a hotel in the big city. i got there. and there was no hotel. i guess i should have asked the deputy, but either he didnt have a deputy, or the deputy was in invisible mode. so.

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When I think about. I don't know what to say.

this is the third road trip in 3 months. i'm tired. and. im just so irritable.

i want to be nice, but, sometimes i end up in places i dont really want to be.

i really don't want to withdraw from school. i think that the discipline i'm pursuing is an important one.

i just don't know why i face the challenges that i face.

but this third road trip. really. even though it has been a nightmare, i don't think that the outcome will be as terrible as.

i just don't know what to say.

i really want to finish the program. im heading all the way back to texas. again.

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Butter is not the Answer # 11

It feels strange being back in Las Vegas, passing by the city skyline it just seems small in comparison to the DFW area. I really only saw the Dallas skyline a hand full of times, a few times when I moved to Dallas in 2020, and then, usually each time I left the area on a road trip. I feel funny. This feels really weird. Being back here. It feels different, it feels really different this time. Being here.

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Postcards from Tennessee # 11

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based on your

performance

i have no choice

but to tell you

that you're

a total loser

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so. i dont know. i was planning on just continuing to work on the project, but, i might just withdraw from the class entirely, and re-enroll next semester.

i realize that im not really the type of person who can work with just anyone.

so i really have to think about how to approach things until the end of the semester.

i have to think about why it wasn't a good match, but, she was working, and going to school at the same time.

and. i really don't know what to say about that. technically im working right and going to school too.

i dont have an employer. because im self employed and in the publishing business.

you know what. i never incorporated chestnut and hazel, or even got as far as registering an it as a company.

id register it as a partnership, you know, as the most logical next baby-step, but i feel that listing

kenneth larot yamat,

and

kenneth larot yamat, the one and only

as partners

would be perceived as facetious.

and i havent officially registered trademarks for chestnut and hazel, chestnut & hazel, or chestnut + hazel.

maybe this is a sign that i should go ahead and do that.

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Okay, i figured something out.

the .prn file isn't for a pocket calculator, although it can be used in one,

it's for SAS, or the statistical analysis system.

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this is really funny. i was trying to figure out what a .prn file is, and it's used for pocket calculator spreadsheets.

here is the thing.

okay.

i had a ti-89 titanium

so i never bothered to learn ms excel, or, well. i guess i mean, i didn't really.

i mean in terms of years ago, when, i was in class and we had something or other to do in ms excel, i would just follow along using my ti-89 spreadsheet, rather than following along in ms excel.

but the .prn file that i was trying to open earlier was probably from a spreadsheet that was exported from someone's pocket calculator, and then uploaded to where i can download it.

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think about

what you did

you total jerk!

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today is tuesday. what did i get done today?

so. i think i figured something out to the internship / work search issue.

i'm going to use the bloomberg terminal.

anyway.

that's exactly what i tried to do this morning.

i figured that. since today is tuesday. i can work on something other than coursework.

so i worked on the work search.

i didn't know where to start,

but

only in the sense that i didn't know

where

i wanted to start.

so i just started exploring the tabs.

anyway. a lot of the companies that i'm interested in don't really have any openings. many don't even have a career page.

so.

i just mailed out a bunch of hand written letters.

the first company I called up. i mentioned that they were listed on the campus job board, but when i went to their website, they didn't even have a career page.

the person who answered the phone mentioned that they didn't have any openings, and they rarely have open positions.

so i figured i'd mail them a letter, saying that i'm interested in working for their company one day.

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what's on my mind right now? Tuesday. tomorrow is tuesday.

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it was kind of tedious, but I did it. i really have to figure out how to put this into words. but I went ticker by ticker. i mean. it didn't take a hell of a lot of time, but it really was tedious. really tedious.

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There was one silly issue that I had because, I don't know what this would be refered to in the spreadsheet application that I typically use, but:

It's Called Freeze Panes / Freeze Rows.

Silly.

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So here is one thing. I need to use two sources, I need to use Bloomberg for the Expected Returns, and I need to use State Street for the weights within the index.

see screenshot below.

I'm trying to highlight how I'm using the information from both sources, Bloomberg and State Street.

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Below is a screenshot of the "custom" tab for the watchlist analytics function, and I'm wanting to put in a formula, but I don't know how to format formulas for the Bloomberg Terminal.

the issue is i want to be able to do Excel Stuff without opening Excel.

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okay. so there are more screenshots here than i can really discuss.

i'm looking at the watchlist analytics for S5INDU and S5MATR in the Bloomberg terminal.

There is one thing that I'm interested in. and it's the tap at the far right that says "Custom"

I tried working with it, but, I haven't come up with anything.

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i think that i figured something out.

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S5INDU is the ticker of the industrials index - XLI is the ETF that tracks the materials index

S5MATR is the ticker of the materials index - XLB is the ETF that tracks the materials index

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so what was it?

it was odd.

the sectors i intended on focusing on was materials.

how it works in this class is that industrials and materials are grouped together for the purposes of group assignments.

i remember when sectors were being assigned, the person who is my current group partner called out industrials, and i called out materials.

so i was under the impression that my group partner would want to work the industrials sector.

but when we spoke today, my group partner mentioned wanting to focus on materials.

but when we had minor group work together, my group partner went into the industrial set first, and then the materials set next.

this isn't a problem. really. but, i just don't know. if this is going to continue to oscillate back and forth or what.

what i'm thinking is. it really might not matter, the reason being that even though i might like materials, if.

well

it just shouldn't matter if i look at industrials or materials.

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so what happened the other night? well, i was at the library later, I think about 45 minutes after midnight, I wanted to get a bunch of stuff done, but, I was tired, and there seem to be as many distractions during the night as there are during the day.

anyway. I want to continue working on my paper.

so in the example student paper, correlations are drawn between the index performance of the financials index, as well as the performance of the real estate index.

what what should I look at in my case?

what I'm thinking about is looking at the various correlations between the materials sector and various commodities.

so in the screenshot below i'm looking at the historical beta for the materials index and the

i think this is brent crude?

let me look.

okay, so it's WTI crude, but what does that mean?

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now what the hell was i thinking about? I think that i'm somewhat tired, and i'll come back to this later. it's just usually so crowded around here that I really can't get anything done, and I think that it's more or less the same issue.

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well, i think that i've found something that I can amuse myself with whenever i think that i'm becoming distracted.

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but it's basically this. I have an idea, and it is an amazing idea, and I think that most people will be impressed by it, if it can be executed in a way that people find interesting, and I think that most people will find it interesting because even when I just think about it, I'm intersted in it myself, and you think that most people will be interested in it, but, they probably won't be interested in it because it is such a trivial thing to pursue.

here is what I think about most things.

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I can't figure out what the hell I was working on earlier, but I have found something that I'm interested in. I really have, and I think that I want to explore more of what I'm doing with this. and this should be the most amazing thing that will ever happen to the universe, and people all around the universe will be amazed with what I'm about to produce, and I will be quoted the universe over, by other sentient life forms, and even non-living forms of sentience,

inanimate entities, and consciousnesses from the void will come.

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well. i'm going to start here:

I'm going to look at the components in the materials sector of the S&P 1500 index.

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Well. truth is. I'm not sure where I was going to go with bond yields for the materials sector, I think what I wanted to do was to check into.

I guess somehow figure how sensitive the materials sector is to interest rates. I could probably use the other chart to figure out a correlation between the two.

like um. ten year treasuries and xlb.

but i'm sure that. um.

i really want something more accurate.

I want to figure out what each company is actually paying in terms of interest coupon payments and how this interacts.

but i'm going to forget about this for now and look at something else. but what was it though? for whatever reason I can't recall what the hell I was thinking about.

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I wanted to look at something, but I'm not sure where I'm going with this. What I think I was trying to look up, was.

I wanted to search. something like bonds. or. i wanted to see how the bond yields compare for companies listed in the materials sector, and compare these to dividend yields for the same companies, but here is the thing.

I'm not sure if this would really mean anything. I'm

I guess. I'm currently under the assumption. that the bond yields should be comparable to the dividend yields, but I'm not sure why I'm assuming this. I guess, I'm not sure what makes me think that the bond yields should be comparable, so I'm not sure why I would want to figure out if the information in the Bloomberg terminal would either confirm my assumption or suspicion or hypothesis or what.

there are other things that I kind of want to look into here as well.

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anyway. I think that this is as much note taking as I'm going to do for the day, and then I'm going to head home.

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So I think this is the 5 year Volatility and Risk analysis, and the citation for this screenshot should be styled as:

S5MATR Index Historical Beta 5 YR, via Bloomberg LP, Accessed August 28, 2022

Notes:

Historical Beta

and

Regression Analysis

are the same thing.

I think, unless I'm missing something.

What I mean is, it seems that when a person is trying to determine the historical beta of an index, or some other security against a benchmark

it's the same thing as performing a regression analysis of an index or some other security against a benchmark,

and it's possible that I already learned this at some point in the past

or maybe someone already told me this before, or maybe I came across this somewhere or another.

anyway.

the reason I'm fussing over this mentally is that the other day I said something like:

"So I would basically pay twice as much for the full set, right?"

and then the guy said

"No, you would just pay double for all four over the quoted price of just two."

and this is always annoying because, it's possible that two people are saying the same thing using different words, but there is always one person in any conversation who really doesn't understand that the same thing can be said in multiple ways.

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I figured out how to put all four of the things I'm looking at into a single chart, the only thing is, is that it isn't very interesting to look at.

SPX Index Comparative Returns, 3 Year, via Bloomberg LP Accessed August 28, 2022

so the part of the assignment that I'm trying to work on has me look at:

Price Performance, Total Return Analysis, Volatility and Risk Analysis, and Those are for YTD and 3YR Periods

and Positive Alpha over a 5 year period.

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The next thing that I want to do is look at the ETFs for the S&P 500 Materials index vs the ETF for the S&P 500 index

The Citations should look like:

XLB US Equity Total Return Analysis, 3 Year, via Bloomberg LP, accessed August 28, 2022

the second would appear as:

SPY US Equity Total Return Analysis, 3 Year, via Bloomberg LP, accessed August 28, 2022

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So what I'm I supposed to look at next?

Okay, so I need to compare the Total Return for S&P 500 Materials Index against the S&P 500 Index.

the issue here is that I need to put the total return for both indices into a single graph, and not have 2 separate graphs, but I forgot how to do that.

anyway, as far as citation styling goes, I think that I would style the first as:

S5MATR Index Total Return Analysis, August 26, 2019 - August 26, 2022, via Bloomberg LP, accessed August 28, 2022

the second would appear as:

SPX Index Total Return Analysis, August 26, 2019 - August 26, 2022, via Bloomberg LP, accessed August 28, 2022

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So what I need to figure out next is:

How do I put this screen shot into the appropriate citation format? I'm thinking it should be:

SPTRSC15 Index Members, August 28th 2022, via Bloomberg LP, accessed August 28th 2022

with an in-text appearance of:

(Bloomberg, 2022)

here are a few things that I want to do with the paper.

one is that I want to use the Bloomberg Terminal as the primary resource, and if possible, the only resource,

and

I want to keep whatever graphics and images and charts that I use in the paper and class presentation to be screenshots and screen captures from the Bloomberg Terminal,

the other thing that I want to mention is that when i'm searching the materials sector, I'm alternating the columns between the GICS and BICS classification systems.

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It really annoys me when the weather is hot and windy, because I want to keep the window open when it's hot, but the shades won't stop moving when it's windy and the window is open. I'm thinking about Sunday, and what to do on Sunday. I didn't apply for any internships or positions since I last wrote about wanting to find one. There's this endless competition between my desire to work on things of personal interest and things of professional interest, and educational pursuits are kind of a combination of both, or maybe educational pursuits are at the intersection of personal interests and professional interests.

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One thing about putting notes on my blog from sources around the internet is that I think it might make more sense to take screenshots of what I find, rather than copying and pasting the material because I file copyrights on the text from my blog, and I obviously can't file a copyright claim for text that I didn't write myself, so to prevent me from accidentally filing a copyright claim on someone else's content, I'll just make a reference to other people's content using screenshots, rather than copying and pasting the text.

There is also this other issue with inserting images into my blog. The issue involves where the lines break, and I guess I just figured out what happens. so I guess I answered the question to the issue that I was having. so there.

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The sector analysis paper is due before the Bloomberg Certification is due, so, I guess I'll get started on that first.

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i went out to eat. i was on campus for

several hours doing course work. what else?

I think that I'm going to work on something.

when I got home after going out to eat. and

spending time on campus. and then going

out to eat again, i um. had trouble turning

on my laptop and i was really frustrated

about it. but i eventually got it turned out.

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I'm tired. and hungry.

it's 330 am.

what could i eat?

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I submitted a copyright claim for the previous post

and I'm thinking that for this post I'll just make it

one big

well

what i'm thinking is that i'll take a different

approach to how i format this post and

i think that i'm going to skip out on creating

lines between newer content and older content

and i'm not sure how this will look or how it will

appear. but i guess i'll see.

nah. you know what. now that i think about it. i do

have to create marks that separate one train of

thought from another train of thought and kind

of demarcate where one train of though begins

and where one ends. so

never mind.

well. i kind of want to head back to campus to

get some work done at the library. i think that today

i spent about 3 hours in the lab. i went to lunch at

11 AM, arrived at campus around 1 PM and left

at around 4 PM. or a little after.

there is an event at the stadium and it's packed and loud

and noisy and i think that i'll wait it out for now. i did

get an email from the student newspaper, and it had

an article or an advertisement of an information

section about student housing options that are on

campus, and i think that i'll explore those at some

point.

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Back Home, September 9th, 2022

i dont know what happened the other day. but i seemed to have irritated the bartender at this pizza place i went to. i really didn't understand what happened.

she seemed upset about something. she said that she wanted me to leave. so i paid and left.

a guy chased after me, and said: "No one here thinks that's funny."

and i still have no idea what i did, or what offense i committed.

i remember, i asked where the basil was, and a woman behind me said:

"the toppings are placed underneath the cheese here."

and i responded: "you're right about that, i've eaten here before."

and then i just sort of went at it with my pizza,

and then the bartender became upset.

my nails were dirty, really dirty, and i was eating two slices of pizza at a time. like a pig.

and maybe that was the thing, she was irritated that i was eating like a pig.

but.

i think that i was eating with a fork and knife first, and then

i started eating with my hands.

maybe i should just change my major or something.

i really fucking wanted to go to school, but, i don't really know what the hell to do.

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Notes, Thoughts, and Reflections While Using the Bloomberg Terminal