Letters from Sanford Street # 439

What is there for me to say? Well, for next week, my plan is to work on the coding project, and the following week, prepare for, and take the coding exam. Everything else is completed, it all falls on me now. I used my vacation in a way that gives me four days off each week for the next two weeks, and this is if I don't take any overtime, or get assigned any overtime.

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I'm kind of, feeling down about, dating and stuff. I just read an piece in the New Yorker from the Daily Shouts series, and it kind of ticked me off, or, rubbed me the wrong way, but, ultimately, the point of the piece was kind of right, it's more or less the attitude that you have about dating that determines your success when it comes to dating. And. That's something I often find true in a lot of things, but I also come across a lot of people with shitty attitudes that seem to get what they want in life as well. Maybe there's no correlation between attitude and success.

Maybe I just kind of have a lot of things going on right now, and, maybe, dating is the last thing I should be thinking of right now. Thinking about dating, and, thinking about my failures and setbacks really puts me in a bad state of mind. Immediately after reading the piece about dating in the New Yorker, I blocked the New Yorker from my news feed. I'm going to go ahead and take it's advice, so to speak, but, I really don't need to read anything else that's going to set me off again. I almost feel like disconnecting from the Google News Feed entirely. This would basically just leave me the news feeds in Robinhood, Interactive Brokers, and Fidelity, as well as the internal corporate news from work.

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My tire pressure was low. I went to three gas stations before I found an air pump that was operational. Sometimes I think about how I can be more self-reliant, but, how the fuck do I fill my tires without a gas station? It's almost like asking how would I fill my gas tank without a gas station.