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I missed a UPS delivery. I didn't order anything, so I'm wondering what this is.
I'm almost worried about what it could possibly be. Maybe it's something good, but maybe it's something evil, or maybe I shouldn't over think this whole thing. I have no idea. Maybe it was a mistake on the part of the delivery guy. I have no idea.
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So this package might not even be mine, but I did call UPS about the issue, and they said it was addressed to my apartment, so I can accept delivery of the package, so long as I have identification showing my address.
There is something slightly odd about this, but I told the customer service representative that I would return the package if it clearly turned out not to be mine, but, I guess I'll figure this out later.
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As for the package, whatever it was, I didn't open it too much, and left it at the pick up location. I told them it clearly wasn't mine, so they said they would send it back.
It actually scared me. It looked like it was sent by some kind of deranged person.
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I uninstalled the Bumble app, but I didn't delete or deactivate my account. Dating apps have been completely useless. Alright. So I snoozed my Bumble account, so it's invisible, and I deleted the app from my phone. I don't know. I don't want to be cynical about online dating, but it just hasn't really worked for me. I want to delete Bumble completely, and at the same time, I really don't, I paid for the lifetime membership, but, I also haven't had any responses in over six months. I really feel like I keep getting fucked out of my money.
Most dating advice centers on the idea that guys have to understand the games that women play, and the tests that women put guys through in order to be successful at dating, and that this has to do with mate selection, and producing offspring with the best genes, and maybe I'm thinking that, maybe it's just better for me to stay out of the gene pool, but I also think that if dating a particular woman involves games and tests, then, being in a relationship with that particular woman will just involve additional games and tests, and if it was hard during the dating stage, it won't be any easier during the relationship.
And, at the same time, I have to be selective about who I get involved with as well, and it's probably better that I don't get involved with someone who is going to aggravate me, not just in a dating or romantic setting, but, just in general. There are people that you come across, or, intersect with, that you really do just have to cut out, or avoid, or, move on from.
I don't want to think that I'm always right about things, maybe my outlook about dating is incorrect, and maybe I'll come around to seeing things differently, but for now, I'm just not seeing how the whole process is actually worth it.
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