Letters from Washburn Road # 29

Some of the things that you think will be amazing, will actually be more boring that you think.

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I don't feel that great. I haven't felt sad for several days, but it seems to be coming back, and again, I have no idea where this feeling comes from. Unhappy.

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I want to nap but I'm awake. I have work later today, and, I also have something else to do a few hours before work starts.

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I'm looking at a post from over 2 years ago from the Sanford Street series. I was doing food delivery at the time to make some extra money even though I was making pretty decent money with all the extra overtime I was logging at the book factory. At the time I was delivering food through Uber Eats, I eventually got kicked off Uber Eats and starting delivering using Door Dash, I don't think that I would have switched unless, like in this case, I was forced to.

Uber Easts and Door Dash are very different. Uber Eats doesn't have, or didn't have zones like Door Dash, you could end up anywhere in Dallas - Fort Worth, and the area is huge, the trips tended to be longer in terms of milage as a result, and seemed, in turn, to pay more. I also felt like I got pinged more often for a delivery with Uber Eats than with Door Dash.

With Door Dash I had to select a zone, so I think I would select the zone near the book factory, but, that wasn't a really good zone because the only restaurants in the area were, I think a donut shop and a few fast food places, so I wouldn't really get pinged. Sometimes I would head home, and then select the zone near my home, but I lived in a low-income neighborhood and again, I just wouldn't get pinged very often.

Sometimes I'd sit in my car for 30 minutes before getting an order, then I'd get an order and it would take 30 minutes, and then at the end of the whole thing I'd get two dollars and fifty cents for all of that. The last time I did food delivery I got an order paying one dollar and seventy-five cents. I declined it and quit food delivery for good at that point. I think it was sometime in the last quarter of 2021 that I quit doing food delivery and just started looking for a second job to make extra money. I took a job at a gas station, but I was only there for a month, the position was more physically and mentally draining than I expected it to be. The pay was also substantially less than what was advertised, so I figured it wasn't worth it.

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Letters from Sanford Street # 281 Posted by Chestnut + Hazel on Mar 8, 2021

I really want to buy some new clothes, new pants, new jackets, and new shirts, but this is definitely a want, and not a need. There is more or less nothing wrong with the clothes I have, and on top of that, I have plenty of new clothes in my closet that I haven't used yet, and there is nothing wrong with those new clothes either, I mean, what I'm wanting is new, new clothes.

Well, I actually did buy 5 new shirts yesterday, so I did buy new, new clothes. What I'm I thinking, though. Well. There weren't any calls for overtime at the book factory. There was one small one, but it filled before I could accept it. What I mean is, I usually take two 12 hours overtime shifts at the book factory, supposing that those don't come up, it means I have to make up that money doing food delivery, and food delivery is a much harder way to make up that money, I want to say that it takes about 20 hours of food delivery to make the same amount as 12 hours of overtime.

There are aspects to both, food delivery doesn't have withholding, but it does have expenses, overtime at the factory does have withholding, but it does not have expenses. Anyway, what I'm trying to get at is this, If I have to make up that money doing food delivery, I really don't want to spend that money. Food delivery money is really hard to earn, which makes it really hard to spend.

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It's another early morning, and I thought about heading to Salt Lake City again. What's there? I have no idea. There's this thought that I might not be able to do it if I don't do it now. Or, you know, if I don't do it today. I have the technical training, the vocational training courses starting next week, and they go on until November, and there is always the possibility of overtime although I'm in a location where the workload would probably trail increased sales volume by a few weeks or a few months.

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It's really early in the morning, and the temperature is cool right now, I thought about heading to Salt Lake City, but I'm not sure I'm going to do that.

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Looking at a few of my Facebook Memories. One is a video of me walking through the grass. In this case I think that I'm walking to work. I didn't buy a car in Missouri until some point in August, and, that was earlier than I wanted to. I wanted to wait until it started snowing again, and for some reason I had to buy a car sooner. The next set of memories were from Texas, from my first few months there in Arlington. Screenshots of my Robinhood account and some other stuff. I closed that account and a bunch of others a while ago because it wasn't really necessary any more, and I didn't feel any need to have more than the ones that I kept.

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The best of the oranges is

rounder than the best of the

candies that have been made

from the qualities of the

taste of the qualifications of the

grapes and of the best of the 

whatever you have seen when the

people of the oranges of the

people of the mandarins or the

animals of the jungle like the

bananas who are related to

the pineapples.

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mushrooms become aware of their surroundings

and begin to question

the reasons for why they grow and

begin to think of better ways

to become larger and

more delicious

and avocadoes become aware of

how they are made into

guacamole

and avocadoes become aware

of how they become

avocado toast

and they become aware

of how tomatoes become

pico de gallo 

and the sausages become aware of

how they know what the

hot dogs who are their cousins

of who you are

and why you

still occupy my thoughts

and why i'm still upset

of how the cabbages

in the garden have become

fermented and have

become sauerkraut

and how they have become shredded 

and have become coleslaw

and how they have been

boiled.

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these are where you

are and you

are here and when 

you went somewhere

else you took everything

I thought you 

were in possession of.

hear the sound

of when

you are

here and when

the sound of how you

spoke and how you 

smell when

you talk about how good

it is and how you

smell when you are

sweaty from activities

that are more 

interesting in the

hotter weather of the

tropical paradise of

the tropical lands

of where the tropical fruits

are grown in great

tropical jungles.

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there is nothing that

can change the

and there is nothing

that can change

the channel

because the 

remote control is

missing or maybe the

remote control is broken

but i wouldn't know if

the remote control is

lost or if the remote

control is broken

because i have no idea

where the remote control

is because i haven't seen

it for the longest time

in the universe

you are a winner because

you are getting what

you want out of life and

you are getting the

things in the cabinet

including

your remote control

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think of how the things

that you've seen are now

different from what was

originally there

and now how what is currently

here is different from what was

previously here and what

was originally here and what

could be a new thing and what

can be the next thing that

is here and what there are

everywhere

and what there are when there

are things that you think that

are meant to be seen and what

are things that are meant to 

be discovered

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