One of the issues I'm dealing with right now is that I have a balance due on my student account at the University of Texas at Arlington. This is because I dropped all of my classes and withdrew from the MSQF program. My student loan allocation for the Fall 2022 semester was reduced retroactively, and now I have to pay back one-thousand eight-hundred and sixty-five dollars. I was originally awarded about ten-thousand in student loans, but that award has been reduced retroactively to around eight-thousand three-hundred. This is a fucking nightmare.
I'm making quite a few changes to my blog. It is just going to be text, mostly. and pictures I'll put somewhere else, or I'll create a new page for photographs that I've accumulated over time.
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I went to the gas station
to get a fountain drink,
and by the time
I get home, my soda is
gone? Where did it go?
I think I drank it all!
...
I have to tell you this because
it may be
relevant to
the question
You seek to answer and it may
be what you
need to know
to satiate the
obsessions that
are eating away at your mind and
every thought
you have:
GUESS WHAT!
BUTTER! IS!
NOT THE!
ANSWER!!!
BUTTER! IS!
NOT THE!
ANSWER!!!
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Everything is kind of a disaster right now. Really. everything is a total nightmare disaster kind of ninth circle of hell situation right now. I don't know where to go from here, and I really don't know what direction to take things to make things better, but I just don't know what the hell to do right now. This is a nightmare. My thinking right now is that I have to stop and restrategize.
Anyway. I do have something funny to say, and it's this: I feel an affinity with UK Prime Minister Liz Truss; I dropped out of grad school after six weeks! I just was not able. To accomplish a fucking thing. There are a number of lingering issues with withdrawing from the MSQF program at UTA and it's really just not as simple or as easy as saying: "look, I fucking quit!" In fact, based on the particular situation I'm facing right now, I basically asked for my request to withdraw from the MSQF program to be reversed.
When I think about these last four years, from the time I left the Las Vegas area, until now, where I'm back in the Las Vegas area, I think about the two years I spent in Missouri, and about the two years I spent in Texas, I feel like in either of those two year blocks of time I really would have been happy just working and saving money, and eventually, doing something, but what? I have no idea. In both cases everything I saved more or less evaporated and I had to start again.
There are times when things are okay, and times when things start not going well, and then times when things start to go to hell again.
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I reverted the layout to something similar to how the blog used to be. I just didn't really like the new template. I did manage to clean a few things up, and I think that I'm going to retitle things as I come across them, and maybe change a few things here and there. I don't really know what I want to do with this thing. There is a possible thing that's going to be an issue in the near future, unless something changes, but this is potentially a disaster, a near term disaster. I don't even really want to go into details right now because this is really bad. Potentially. but who knows. It's never really possible to completely leave things behind, sometimes there's always something that goes with you. There are always a few things that come with you even after you go. Which is kind of a nightmare. I think. Well, we will find out. I'm deleting things even though I've previously been averse to deleting things. From my blog. I mean.
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