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I went to 7-Eleven to get something to eat. They have a burrito promotion going on, but the guy at the register rung me up in a way that didn't process the burrito promotion.
I confronted him about this and showed him the signage, showing that it was still active until November 2nd.
He said: "Well, I can't just make them 3 dollars."
So I replied: "I also can't let you overcharge me, so, I'm leaving these here."
I drove down the street to a different 7-Eleven where the discounts went through. I really just wanted to pay for it, knowing that it will just end up in the trash anyway, but, this has happened like 4 or 5 times already, and at some point it has to stop, and if I have to make a point about it in a way that's unpleasant, then, I guess that's just the way it goes.
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Some people are going
To try to take advantage of you.
People will try to take advantage
Of you every chance they get,
And it probably won't ever stop.
Sometimes, Kenneth, you have to
Push back, just like you did, and
Sometimes you have to walk away,
Just like you did.
Walking away is
Sometimes the only
thing you can
Do. Sometimes you
won't be able
To come to terms with
another person,
And sometimes that's
just the way it is.
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I want to say that I shouldn't be so angry over a dollar, but, this has happened 4 or 5 times already. It's annoying.
I just have to stick to buying groceries, and eating canned soup.
I'm resentful about how people mistreat me, or try to mistreat me, and try to take advantage of me.
This whole thing makes me want to eat ramen noodles for a year. If someone doesn't want my burrito money, then, someone doesn't need to get it.
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I really think that I am just going to cut back on my food spending for now, and spending in general. I'm annoyed by that whole burrito incident.
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I was editing my blog, and I saw posts from April of this year. It feels like forever ago, but it was just 5 months ago. It wasn't easy working at the Book Factory, I don't think that I would have ever thought about transferring out of the Book Factory, but those two month where there were cuts in overtime, or, there was kind of an overtime drought, kind of caused me to explore other options and other possibilities.
These past few weeks were my spending has been kind of elevated, I've been spending more on going out to eat, and just not being super careful about how I spend my money, I think the only thing I bought for myself was a box of shirts, even though I definitely do not need more shirts.
I think that the whole "Burrito Incident" put me in kind of a state of panic. I mentioned several times that this wasn't the first time that this thing has happened, this is just the first time that I decided that I wouldn't put up with it any more. I really am going to cut back on my spending. I feel like sometimes people can be kind of aggressive in trying to get your money, and the only solution is being aggressive in holding on to it, and you really should hold onto your money, once it's gone, you have nothing to fall back on.
Thinking back to my time at the Book Factory, when I was working a lot of overtime, I also didn't really have much time to explore other options, within the company, or outside of the company, or whatever. Working nights, plus working lots of overtime doesn't leave much time for spending money. I made a pretty decent amount of money during the time I worked there, and I am really happy about that. Working at the Book Factory wasn't really easy, it really was kind of a challenge.
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I think that some people. Sometimes you come across people who. Really are characterized by. Something like. A constant state of negative emotions. Really. Like. I guess you can listen to what they have to say, but don't listen too much, because it will bring you down. I've made simple changes like. Removing news articles. Modifying my news feed to remove any news articles they irritate me, or get me going, or make me angry, or make me sad or depressed. Why would I do that? Well, I don't see any reason to make people rich for making me unhappy. Really. Like. Fuck that.
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Honestly, though, I'm optimistic about the future, but I'm also filled with quite a bit of fear and uncertainty as well. The fact that I was being over charged on multiple occasions scares me. Either, the businesses are hurting for money, and fucking people over is their only solution, or, maybe I'm being targeted. I have to prepare for. Something. I don't know what. Stockpile money I guess. Let's say, everything turns out to be rosy, well, then I just have extra money, and less to worry about. What else? Well, when I was looking at my posts from 5 months ago, I saw that I posted screenshots of my Robinhood account balance. It was in the 24000 range, now it's in the 34000 range. I'm happy that I've been able to sock away that much money in the last 5 months, but I'm also feeling that, this is partly due to the fact I just haven't felt safe or secure for a while. Saving and investing money isn't some kind of coping mechanism for feeling insecure, and, I also don't think that saving and investing money is a comfort activity for when I feel insecure, what I think is that it's the most logical thing to do when I don't feel secure. When I feel insecure about the future, or uncertain about the future.
There is this idea that, you should always be in survival mode, and maybe that's really how life actually is, life is always a struggle for survival, and it's never easy, and uncertainty is how things always are, and you really always have to be prepared. I wonder where I'll end the year at. I am afraid. There's this whole. Controversy over the budget, and infrastructure bill, and stimulus package, and the debt ceiling, and, inflation, and so many other things.
Just. Be smart I guess.
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