This is some kind of nightmare: I stop working and head home whenever I'm exhausted, or as soon as I'm feeling exhausted, and then as soon as I get home, I can't fall asleep. I have 11 more days of this 19 day situation, and I really need some sleep in order to address it. I'd seriously rather pay off my student loans than take any classes for Fall 2026. I'm just not a really efficient producer of grades, or I'm just getting a lousy exchange rate on a time to grades basis. I'm really [really] irritated. I'm half-way through my program, and, at the same time, I'm [only] half-way done with my program.
My thought is that the -- the cost of completing the program will be the same as getting to this half-way point, but actually, it will probably cost more. Like the next 21 units will cost more than the previous 21 units. Tomorrow [ i guess really today -- or later today ] is going to be a lighter work-day. I still haven't fallen asleep, and when or but when I do i still need my full allotment of sleep.
Any number of nightmares. did you know? that today [was] as it is now [night time] not too much of [a nightmare] did you know that? today turned out to be a light day. I didn't work too many hours. I woke up late because I stayed up late the previous night, well, I stayed up well into the morning. There was
something actually kind of interesting that happened the other day: I bought socks at Target, I think that it is on Maryland Parkway - It is kind of near the UNLV Campus. I bought socks. Crew Socks. and. the brown ones were 250 percent more expensive than the black ones [and] I'm kind of irritated about that. but I've kind of been wanting something other than black crew socks for a while. so [i figured] what the heck! I WILL JUST GET THEM EVEN IF THEY ARE 250 PERCENT MORE EXPENSIVE!
So today is now Thursday the 21st. I have ten more days of this nineteen day nightmare. I'm working on bringing my student loan balances down to an acceptable level, and this is taking nineteen days because I want to do this using new money rather than liquidating any existing assets. I'm feeling really unhappy and kind of discouraged how this whole graduate school thing turned out. This is probably the end of this endeavor, and I kind of want to think about how this all turned out in some other kind of way than the way I thought it would turn out. I
feel like real Garbage [right now]. right now it is the 22nd. I feel like [such garbage] right now. some how it continues to happen where i can't fall asleep one night, then i end up staying up. then i end up waking up the following morning later than i would really like to [or maybe] it's more like i wake up at something of a normal time, but i'm really in a really [bad mood] or in a totally garbage mood.
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